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“Alors,” said Louis. He leaned into a standing position.
Georgi stood as well. “Staying?”
I shrugged.
“Tomorrow, then.”
Once they were in their rooms, I got another glass of wine, lit a cigarette, and stretched out on the sofa. Vera was behind my lids. Almost a year before, at a Christmas gathering, on that same sofa, she lay on top of me and kissed me deeply. I could feel the weight of her slight body, her narrow hips, her small breasts against me. It was a wonderful kiss; I hadn’t had one like that from Magda in a long time. Ever since then she had watched me when we were all together, and it had taken a long time to rid her stare of the heat that spread along my neck and cheeks. Now, though, her suspicions about Magda’s and my problems had been verified. I rolled over.
13
Georgi woke me by shaking my shoulder. “Telephone.” He was in a thick beige robe that had his initials GR, on the breast. “Your oaf.” I knew then that it was Stefan.
“Magda said to try for you there. You’re no longer sleeping at home?”
“What’s going on?”
“Come see me at Josef Maneck’s apartment. Here’s the address.”
I yawned. “What is this, Stefan? The man killed himself.”
“Just get over here, okay?”
Georgi was frying eggs when I came into the kitchen. “Is the oaf requesting your presence?”
“Shut up, Georgi.” I sat at the table and started filing the playing cards back into their boxes. The empty wine bottles still lined the counter, and every surface was stained by red circles. There was a sour stink in the air. Georgi brought over two plates.
“Want coffee?”
I nodded.
“Then make it yourself, I’m going back to bed.”
I put some water on to boil and searched for the grounds.
“What do you think of Louis?”
There were enough grounds for a few cups. “He’s all right.”
“He told me that things here are looking pretty bad.”
“In what way?”
“Says this won’t last. This thaw.”
“What does he know? He’s a tourist.”
“No, he’s lived here before, and he’s visited a lot.”
“Well, then, he’s a foreigner.”
“Not really-his last name’s Rostek. His grandfather’s one of us, from one of those purges, you know, in the ’teens-if you could afford it, you went to Paris. His opa could afford it.” Georgi brought his empty plate to the sink. “I worry too much in the mornings.”
The water was boiling, so I added the grounds. The froth ran over, hissing on the burner. “Don’t worry so much,” I told him. “And don’t listen to foreigners. They mean well, but they know nothing about our lives.”
He considered that a moment, then got two cups out of the cabinet. “Give me one of those, will you?”
Josef Maneck’s apartment was in the old town, a three-room, high-ceilinged place that had been his father’s. Now it was no one’s. The old furniture was still here, dusty chairs and cabinets and trinkets collected over too long a life. On the walls were faded portraits in ornate frames, and a few empty frames stuffed recklessly behind the sofa.
Stefan was sitting on Maneck’s sunken mattress, reading a book. He showed me the cover-a state edition of poetry by someone I vaguely remembered-before throwing it on the dirty, knotted rug. “Josef liked his verse,” said Stefan. “Pretty uplifting stuff for a suicidal drunk.”
“Someone gave it to him. How long have you been here?”
“I spent the night.”
He leaned forward with his hands on the bed and lifted his weight with a grunt. He passed me on his way to the living room and took a notepad off the coffee table. The top page had been ripped out, but Stefan had rubbed a pencil all over the second page. Not all the scribbled letters were recovered.
A-TO-IN
K-R-5
2-2.-0
“Antonin,” said Stefan. “The rest, I don’t know-address and phone number, maybe. But I’m sure about the name.”
“So he knew someone named Antonin. Does it really matter?”
“It could matter.” His voice was trying to encourage me to believe, with him, that this suicide was more than it seemed. “I’ve been all over the place looking for an address book. Nothing. But I’ll bet that if we can find Antonin, we’ll learn something important.”
I doubted this, but got up with him and handed him his hat from the coffee table.
14
Cafe-bar #103 had just opened, and the bartender, when he saw us come in, said with sudden, false brightness, “Comrade Inspectors, you’ve returned!” He set two somewhat clean glasses on the counter. “What will it be?”
Stefan climbed onto a stool while I stood beside him. “This Josef Maneck,” he said. “Did you ever see him with other people? Someone named Antonin?”
The bartender’s smile faded. “Not much business lately. Won’t you have a drink?”
“We’ll just take some answers,” said Stefan.
“Give me a coffee,” I told him.
“Coffee? Come on, Comrade Inspector.”
“Palinka,” I said.
He grabbed a bottle of apricot brandy from the shelf behind him. As he poured, he said, “Well,” then corked the bottle and set it beside my glass. “The nut only came in alone. He was that kind.”
“What kind?” asked Stefan.
“A friend of nobody. You know what I mean.” The bartender pushed his eyeglasses up the arch of his nose, then leaned an elbow on the counter. “He came in alone, ordered his drinks quietly, but as he got drunk he ordered them louder, like I couldn’t hear.” He shook his head. “We could all hear him.”
I picked up my brandy. “So he always came in alone.”
“Of course he did. No one would spend time with that guy, except maybe Martin. But Martin only did it for the drinks. Martin will do most anything for a drink. Sometimes I get him to clean up the toilet for a drink, and he does a hell of a good job.”
“But did he ever talk to you?” said Stefan. “About anyone he knew. An Antonin?”
He put away the second, empty glass. “If he ever did, I wasn’t listening.”
The brandy was coarse; it burned my tongue. “What about Martin?”
“What about him?”
“You said Josef Maneck talked to Martin.” I placed some koronas on the counter, more than the drink cost.
He looked at the money. “That’s what I said. But I don’t know what they talked about.” He placed his hand over the coins.
Stefan looked at me, at the drink beside the bartender’s hand, then at the bartender. “Where does this Martin live?”
He slid the coins off the counter. “That, I can tell you.”
Around the corner, down an alley, and through a misaligned side door that did not shut all the way. There was a short, dark entryway that led to a curtain of beads missing half its strings. “Martin?” Stefan called through the beads. “You in there, Martin?”
We heard a horrendous, wrenching cough.
It was an old storage room, with a couple rusted shelves in the corner. I wondered for an instant how someone could end up in a hole like this, in a time of assigned housing. Then I saw Martin on a thin mattress, his back against the stone wall, trying to light a cigarette, but the matches wouldn’t catch. No paperwork, that’s how you ended up here. Lost, or sold for a drink. From a high barred window enough cold light came through to see the cockroaches scurrying from our entrance. Here, beneath the surface of the Capital, lived the lumpenproletariat-or, as The Spark would put it: the underworld criminals, antisocial shirkers and prostitutes. The place stank of feces.
We stayed on our side of the room. “Having a rough morning, Martin?”
Martin’s face was swollen and red-veined. He dropped the matches, then leaned to pick them up again. “You got a light?”
“We’ve got questions, Martin.”
Stefan stepped forward. “Just a few questions.”
He lit the cigarette and drew on it deeply, his whole body rising, then coughed again, lips wet.
Stefan squatted to his level. “Remember your friend, Josef Maneck? He talked to you, didn’t he?”
Martin wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and took another drag. He nodded, maybe in answer to the question.
“Did Josef tell you about his other friends, Martin? Did he tell you about a friend named Antonin?”
The lighter was no longer in Martin’s hand. I didn’t know where it was.
“Surely he told you about Antonin. That’s his oldest friend. Did he talk to you about his friends, Martin?”
That’s when I noticed the source of the stink. In the corner, behind the shelves, were a few fresh turds. Martin had been too drunk to make it outside last night, or this morning.
“Stefan,” I said, but he didn’t hear me.
“Tell us about his friends, Martin, come on.”
“I don’t know,” Martin said. He sat up a little, as if to look dignified, and took another drag. “He talked, yeah, but he didn’t tell me nothing.” His voice was strangled and labored, and I wondered how a man like that could keep taking breaths.
“Now we’re getting somewhere.” Stefan settled a little lower, on his haunches. “So what did Josef talk to you about? He bought you drinks, he talked to you. What about, Martin?”
“Nothing nothing. I didn’t listen.”
“You’re not that rude, Martin. He told you about his friends, maybe, or how he used to be an art curator. Surely he talked about that.”
Martin squinted, then nodded slowly. “Yes, art. He wouldn’t shut up. Art.”
“Of course he did. And he told you why he stopped doing that. Why he stopped being a curator.”
Martin’s next drag was aborted by a fit of angry hacking that turned his face purple and ridged his neck with fat veins. Stefan looked away finally, and I caught his eye and nodded at the door. He shook his head and turned back.
“Why did he stop working in the museum, Martin? You know the reason. It was a good job, why give it up?”
“And you’ll leave me alone?”
“Sure, Martin. Then we’ll leave you alone.”
He squinted again, trying to think it over. His eyes were red all the way through. “He couldn’t.”
“Couldn’t what?”
“Couldn’t live with himself.”
“Why couldn’t he live with himself?”
“Because.”
I cleared my throat. The stink was making my eyes water.
“Because why, Martin?”
“He was terrible,” said Martin. “A terrible person.”
“How’s that? How was he terrible?”
I stepped forward, and it shot out of me: “Because he was a goddamned drunk, for Christ’s sake!”
They both looked at me, Martin with some hesitant surprise, Stefan clearly angry.
Then, just as I had done the day before, I turned around and left.
15
Since we had brought separate cars, I drove back to the station to wait for him. On the way, I saw wives in windows brushing off their shutters and waving away pigeons, and in Victory Square there was a procession of university students. They had signs-small, hand-drawn boards-that demanded accountability within the universities. LET US GRADE PROFESSORS, SO WE CAN TRUST THEIR GRADES! Along their edge, a handful of bored, uniformed Militia looked on.
I didn’t regret my outburst; I didn’t care what Stefan thought. I’d had enough of his worthless needling, because when I looked into Martin’s decomposing features I felt like I was one with him again, in those black bars just after the war. Like I had never crawled out of that subhuman existence.
Leonek gave a smile for my benefit, but when I talked to him there was still that underlying misery. “You’re coming over tonight, then?”
“New tie and everything.” He flipped it up for me to see. It was green silk with small brown dots forming diagonal lines.
“I’m sure Magda will appreciate it.”
Emil passed me on his way to Leonek’s desk and gave a wink. “When are you going to invite me and Lena over for dinner?”
“When you get a decent tie.”
Mikhail Kaminski had set up a chair across from Brano Sev, and they were hunched on either side of the desk, conferring over typewritten pages from the files of state security. Their voices were a distant rumble.
I knocked on Moska’s door and waited for his voice: “Enter.” He was sitting at his desk, large hands prone atop piles of papers, and I was struck by the suspicion that he had been sitting like that all morning, immobile, while outside children played loudly on the sidewalk.
I sat across from him. “What do you know about this guy?”
“Who?”
“Kaminski.”
He glanced up to make sure I’d latched the door, then patted his shirt pockets and the coat hanging from his chair until he found a pack of cigarettes. He offered me one. We blew smoke simultaneously into the stuffy office. “Moscow sent him, but I only heard about it the day before he showed up. What can I tell you?”
“You can tell me why he’s here.”
“Does he need a reason?” He didn’t seem to like the taste of his cigarette, so he put it out. “You’ve heard about what’s been going on in Poland. It wasn’t so long ago they sent tanks into East Berlin and shot a lot of people. You think they want to do that here? They don’t like sending in tanks, any more than we like receiving tanks.” He readjusted himself in his groaning chair. “Kaminski apparently asked for this assignment. He was posted here after the war and claims he’s in love with our country. Says he wants to help shepherd our path to socialism. I checked his file, and it’s true-he was here after the war. I don’t think either of us knew him, but he worked with Sev. And you know what that means.”
It meant that, just after the war, Mikhail Kaminski from the KGB and Brano Sev from our own Ministry for State Security were partners in the quick cleansing of the Capital. It meant sudden disappearances in post offices, government ministries, and even the Militia offices-old friends of questionable loyalty vanished, replaced by fresh-faced automatons. Only Moska’s deft juggling of paperwork kept our office relatively untouched. I said, “So this guy is an old hack.”
“He’s an ambitious prick. Be careful around him. He puts on a good face, but take a look at his hand when he talks. He’s got a nervous trigger finger.”
I smiled.
“How was your vacation?”
“Didn’t get much rest.”
“I don’t think you mean that in a good way.”
“I don’t.” I smoked his cigarette a while longer. “I think you’re going to hear from Stefan. About me, that is.”
He frowned.
“He’s obsessed with this case, he’s got us going all over the place for nothing.”
“It is his case.”
“Maybe.” I put the cigarette out. “But I don’t have to like it.”
“Just bear with him, he’ll figure it out soon enough. He’s a good inspector.”
“He can’t seem to believe that anyone could commit suicide in these times.”
“But you can,” said Moska.
“Yes. I can.”
16
Stefan was there when I came out. He didn’t have his bag, and he was standing at his desk, shifting some papers around. When he saw me leave Moska’s office he stopped trying to appear occupied. He gave me a firm look, then nodded at the door.
I followed him through the busy corridor, past uniformed militiamen walking with secretaries, and out to the front steps. It wasn’t that hot, but Stefan was sweating.
> “Yes?”
“I’ve had enough of this,” he began, then stopped. When he started again, it came out clearly and without hesitation: “I’ve put up with you for a long time now, and I thought that going off to the provinces would help things. But it’s only made them worse.”
“Investigate the suicide. I don’t care, really.”
He raised a hand. “That’s not what I’m talking about. This case is just another part of a four-year-long insult. Four years!” he said, shaking his head. “Ever since that shoddy book came out you’ve forgotten what we were to each other-we grew up together!”
He waited, for some kind of recognition perhaps, and it says something about me that I was stuck on his description of my book as shoddy.
“I’ve seen this coming for a long time. Those friends of yours, those writers, they fill you up, they make you think you’re infallible. But you certainly are not. You’ve ruined a marriage to a beautiful woman, you can’t do police work anymore, and now you can’t even write. What are you, Ferenc? What the hell do you have left to offer?”
I didn’t know where all this was coming from-or maybe I did know, but I didn’t know why now, of all times, he had to say it. We’d been drifting apart for a long time. “This is a load of crap,” I said.
He started nodding very quickly, his second chin quivering. “Crap is right, Ferenc. You’ve crapped on our friendship for a long time. You’ve crapped on me. And now I’m going to crap on your future. Are you ready?”